"How am I not myself?" ~ I Heart Huckabees
If Art is communication -- and that makes sense to me -- what message am I trying (or what message do I want) to send? What do I want to say?
When there are no words, I go deeper. Feel inside. See in color and texture. See pictures, movements. Do I hear sounds?
Art is also self-expression, though it has been argued that even self-expression is communication. Either by receiver seeing who the artist is, or by the artist receiving as he is creating. Understanding who she is through her own artistic expression, even when no one else sees.
How am I not myself?
Cooking dinner for my family. Cooking -- for me -- is not an expression of love for my family. I don't feel love when I cook.
When I clean house, run errands, carpool and chauffeur when I'd rather be creating art: painting, writing, building with clay.
When I watch my life in a movie or read it in a book, but don't live it.
That's how I am not myself.