You could say I did this in honor Valentine's Day, but that would be a lie. You could say that it was a homework assignment from our couples counselor and I would be only slightly embarrassed when admitting that this was true. But at any rate, I found it illuminating to do.
I need a companion who will hold me when I am sad and problem solve with me when I run into a wall.
I need a companion who will seduce me and make me laugh and travel with me.
I need a companion who shares enough similar interests that we have something to talk about “when the children leave.”
I need a companion who will share the responsibility of running a house and raising children.
I need a companion who will help tidy the disarray that I spread around, someone who will know when to let a creative impulse run its course and when to corral my impetuousness because he thinks it could be detrimental to me or the family.
I need a companion with whom I feel comfortable in bed.
I need a companion with whom I feel sexy and excited in bed.
I need a companion who wants to go hiking and camping and inhaling Nature with me. And one who likes to “couch it” and watch movies. And one who reads. And one who talks about the things that interest him and excite him; and who appreciates it when I do the same.
I need a companion who has enough similar goals that I feel like we are headed in the same direction.
I need a companion who believes in me and encourages me to live my dreams and to actively fight for them.
I need a companion who will work along side me.
I need a companion who understands that I need time alone sometimes and will support that I do that by taking the kids for awhile or “allowing” the daycare or babysitter that would replace me/him.
I need a companion who wants to continue to build our relationship.
I need a companion who seeks to grow as a person and encourages me doing the same.
I need a companion who understands my need for multiple relationships/friendships. And that won’t feel abandoned when I’m fostering other relationships/friendships.
I need a companion who will surprise me and kiss me on the back of the neck and who will reach out and touch me as I walk by him.
I need a companion who will look for the good in the day and remind me to do the same, who will be silly with me and leave me notes in weird places.
I need a companion who will look for ways to connect with his children and foster their relationships.
I need a companion who will be able to ask for what he needs and will be able to tell me what’s going on for him (how he feels) for the purposes of communicating.
I need a companion who can tell me he loves me and doesn’t expect anything in return, though still knows in his heart that I love him as well.
I am willing to offer love and companionship to my partnerships.
I am willing to smile and ask about his day.
I am willing to hold his hand and massage his neck when he is stressed.
I am willing to try and keep the house less cluttered so he feels more calm when he returns from work and on his days off.
I am willing to build a sustainable lifestyle enabling us to rely on others less.
I am willing to change our lifestyle to fit whatever income status we have.
I am willing to listen and hear my partner’s concerns when they arise.
I am willing to problem solve when the need arises.
I am willing to hold him and snuggle when he wants to relax.
I am willing to ask him periodically if he needs something from me that he’s not saying.
I am willing to ask for what I need in the partnership.
I am willing to keep lines of communication open between us.
I am willing to bring spontaneity and as much laughter as I can muster to the partnership.
I am willing to work hard and move forward toward our goals.
I am willing to live my dreams along side of his.
I am willing to verbally and physically show my love in different ways.
I am willing to continue to grow as a human being and to support him doing the same.
I am willing to honor his path and wherever he is on it.
I am willing to ask him what he wants from me.
I am willing to share my emotions with him … whatever they may be.
I am willing to put energy into our personal relationship so that we may maintain a level of intimacy and love.
I am willing to look outside one partnership to get needs met (from friends or other partnerships) that I don’t seem to be getting from the one.
I am willing to be vulnerable in front of my partner(s).
I am willing to be open and true in front of my partner(s.)
I am willing to support his needs.
I am willing to encourage his dreams.
I am willing to try and balance my writing career, with loving him -- and any others that come along – and raising and loving the children, and keeping the house nice, and the gardens and yards decent and providing food, and the animals clean and healthy.
I am willing to show up every day and be here now.
I am willing to open my home and heart to his extended family.
I am willing to listen to music and find him in the lyrics.
I am willing to write poems about him and to find magic in the mundane of our lives.
I am willing to keep switching sides in our bed so that he is comfortable.
I am willing to keep on him about staying healthy and making healthy choices.
I am willing to keep reading and learning so that I stay intelligent and have topics to talk about with my partner(s).
I am willing to be silly and leave notes for him in weird places.
I am willing to initiate sex.
I am willing to hold my tongue when I am tempted to nag or pout or “do the train thing.”I am willing to discuss ideas I have with him before I get too set on something and want it too bad.